THIS BLOG IS OFFICIALY DEAD. THIS IS CURRENT.

-keLLi

I haven't updated in almost a month. Well, I've been keeping a written diary but I filled it up. I need to buy a new one. I guess for now this will be my only diary. I'm not sure what's going on with Xanga, but I think my mom accidently set it to pay for my Xanga Premium Account automatically...LOL. She threatened to delete my site when she saw it. It's a good thing I have an obscure URL or she'd be able to find it easily, but luckily she can't remember the address. I'm still going out with Kyle. Things with him are going ok, but I'm not sure if we're going to make it through the school year. We don't get to see each other that often and I think he's going to get bored of me pretty quickly if all we ever do is talk on the phone. The Saturday before last was the Tri-Stake Dance at church. I usually don't go to church dances but since Kyle was going to be there I went. It was fun. We made out but got caught. Now he's banned from the dances and possibly from the next Youth Conference because he was caught smoking. I have to go to seminary now. Up at the crack of dawn every morning. I hate it. It starts at 6AM! It's unnatural for me to be awake then. It's weird. I have to homeschool. It's not going very well. I need to get off quickly. My mom's in the shower but if she sees me doing this she'll kill me.

Once again, it's been awhile since I've written. I have been keeping offline diaries, though, so it's not really that big of a deal. Kirk's birthday was last Saturday. He turned 12. I know I was being a bitch, but I didn't go to his party. He went shopping at the Galleria to Pacific Sunwear and stuff like that, and I didn't want to go because I really haven't been getting along with my mom lately - it's been worse that usual, if that's at all possible. I knew we'd end up getting in a fight and then everyone would be pissed off, so I stayed home and watched TV - boring, but atleast Kirk had fun. I think that is really the only major thing that's happend - pretty sad. This weekend (Friday and Saturday) is Youth Conference. I'm hoping that David will go, but I doubt he will. I tried to call him yesterday on his cell and at home but he didn't pick up. I think his cell was off, though, because it didn't even ring - it went directly to his answering machine. Either that or he's got my number on block. I tried to call his house once. I don't like calling there very often because the one time I ever did he sounded really pissed off that I had called. I left a message on his cell. I know he won't call back, so I'm going to try to call him today before church. Well, I need to hurry and call. Oh, and about Independence Day - I missed writing about that - I didn't celebrate. I stayed home again. My mom thinks it's irregular behavior for me to stay locked in my room all the time and never going anywhere. She recently let me put a lock on my door again.